Saturday, September 10, 2011 / 11:29 PM
My God is amazing.
Hello world!
Welcome me back. HAHAHAHA I'm kidding.
Today edge was a complete WOW. I really must thank God for helping me run sound today, for ministering to me even though I was on duty. I've mixed sound and felt God's presence before, but never quite this strong, and never quite so close to the verge of tears.
You are God
You are God
You are so glorious
You are so powerful
You are God
You are God
You are victorious
You are the ONE JesusThose words really hit me even as worship was going on today, and there and then, I finally truly realized that all I would EVER need in this world, is simply God. He is all I need, all I EVER WILL need. He beautiful, glorious, and so worthy to be praised! :D
He really touched my heart today, and I know, he will continue to, and he will always, always sweep me off my feet.
Thank you God, I love you. Thank you for always being there for me even though I am undeserving. Even though I am not worthy of your love, you are ever so willing to reach out to me and cradle me in your arms. Thank you God, for loving me, for sending Jesus to lay down his life for me. Only in you, there is fullness of joy! :D
I love you, heavenly Daddy! (:
Sunday, June 12, 2011 / 12:02 AM
Death.
Hello everyone!
Yesterday, I had the strangest dream that I was dead.
I saw a glimpse of my funeral. I didn't see who was there though, hahaha. But I knew that my family was sad. How sad they were I don't remember. I just know they were sad.
Then as I watched life going by, missing everyone with every inch of my heart. But soon I realized that I had become...well, visible. A little transparent maybe, but still visible. Yes, shocked everyone out. But hey, I was back. In a way I suppose. I just can't eat and touch like everyone else, but still, I was happy to be back. Back to spend time again with everyone.
Strangest, but by far the best dream I've had. But truth is, this doesn't happen in reality. A real reminder of cherishing everyone around me.
So, treasure those around you. You can't really go back once you're gone, or as a matter of fact, when they're gone.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011 / 9:21 PM
Hello!
HI EVERYONE DID YOU MISS ME. Hahaha!
Yes I know I haven't been here for a bit, been mugging/facebooking/and doing all kinds of other strange stuff(: Hope you've all been fine :D
And just wanted to pop by to let you know:
GOD LOVES YOU! :D
See you all soon, lovely people!
Sunday, January 16, 2011 / 9:55 PM
Welcome!
Hello world!
Okay I haven't posted in a good while hahaha. Like, posted a GOOD PROPER POST! So yes, hello everyone. Welcome me. HAHAHA.
Well life's been pretty okay I suppose. Been writing, drawing, and definitely studying loads more than usual.Heh. O level year. I seriously I can't wait to get everything over and done with this year. Goodbye Os. GOODBYE ST MARGS omw. Heh.
But yeap, it's going to be hectic weekends for me this month. Competition after competition which also means refereeing after refereeing. Not that I mind hahaha. I have loads of fun in there (:
I can't wait to take a nice rest, I admit. Hahaha :D
God bless!
I just do.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010 / 1:13 AM
Missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you find yourself doing something and wishing they were right there by your side.Got it off a website (:
God bless!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010 / 1:39 AM
Dear Miss Peng.
Hello world!
Yes world, let me introduce you to Miss Peng.
It's amazing how God works. Amazing how he brings people into your life to bring you up, to show you that you're loved.
Recently, I felt so immensely hurt and I felt so broken, almost as good as someone shooting 10 arrows through my heart. Horrible. I would say I felt like dying. I wished so hard, so badly that I could rewind time. So badly for something to kill me. I could die. I know I have high pain tolerance. I know I lived through so much, so much hurts. And this, by far, is the ultimate.
Today when I went out I felt so hurt that I didn't even bother about what I should wear. Anything. No contact lens. Nothing flashy. Dull shirt. Boring denim shorts. Didn't tie up my hair. Buried my head in a book because I didn't want to think of the past that poisoned me, killing every inch of me bit by bit.
The day came to a close with Dad's birthday dinner. I was dying already. After the day, I was sweating, and with THAT dressing, I walked up to my parents shop to meet my family for dinner.
The moment I got there, Mom and Dad pointed at me and went "That's my youngest daughter."
I turned. There, stood a sweet looking, slim lady in a flowy white top with leggings and heels next to my daughter.
"That's your daughter? She's so lovely! Such a beautiful girl, really! So so beautiful." she exclaimed.
Now I thought that was a lie. Everyone of mom's customers tell me I'm beautiful. Courtesy's sake you know. Though some really do think I'm pretty. But for nuts;looking like this? She's got to be kidding. How in the world can I BE BEAUTIFUL. Bad dressing, broken on the inside...HOW IS THERE ANY POSSIBLE BEAUTY. Oh how I thought, she wasn't serious, that she was only being courteous.
Later on, I found out that she was Miss Peng, and that she was my brother's P1 form teacher 14 years ago. She happened to drop by, and amazingly, she recognized my parents and brother and they recognize her, so they got into a little conversation and then I arrived.
Yeah we talked. Slowly I found out more. She's a Christian, with a gift of vision into the spiritual realms. She could see all good and bad...smell them too. And that she's been through so much, that her spirit was so sensitive to the holy spirit. The more I heard, I got more and more absorbed into the conversation and amazed at all her life experiences.
Not until she turned to me and went "You've a great destiny, d'you know?"
I was surprised. Not that I didn't know, but for someone to say that, it just hits you in a different way.
She continued. "I see a lot of light in you. Lots of it. So much of that is coming out of you. You're so beautiful."
I started to bring myself down again. But somewhere in me knew her opinion was different from so much of the others that I couldn't help but continue to listen to her, somewhere in me believing.
"The moment I saw you, I knew you were beautiful. Your spirit is such a beautiful one. So sweet, so beautiful, really."
People tell me I'm beautiful but I never believed. Sure it's a compliment, but coming from Miss Peng...it wasn't just that. It's well; actually true. I couldn't help but to tell her how broken I was. How tired I felt. How misunderstood, how much pain I held. My tears flowed. My heart broke once again.
She looked at me with eyes filled with love.
"You're so strong. Even though you're broken, the light still comes through." Frankly I'm not too sure about whether she said anything about it being God's light, but maybe. I was so overwhelmed that I can't remember that part.
Mom heard, and she went "Yeah,this one's very pretty."
Miss Peng looked back and replied with such a lovely laugh in all seriousness "Not just that. Her spirit is such a beautiful one. I want to take her home with me!"
Then Mom surprisingly, agreed and revealed about the time she was pregnant with me. How actually, I was God's gift. How it was through me that she had breakthroughs. How when I was young I was different from other kids.
Miss Peng only smiled even more.
"You're beautiful."
My tears flowed and I couldn't help but to smile. Beauty in the ashes.
Dear Miss Peng, you're God's gift.
Thank you so much for letting me know, and for telling me what God told you, and telling me what you see.
Thank you that you genuinely think I'm beautiful, that you saw beauty in my spirit even though I never did. Thank you for loving me even though we've barely met, for seeing straight through me into all my brokenness. Thank you that you're so sensitive to the spirit and thank God he has blessed you with the one of the world's most amazing pair of eyes to see beyond the surface, to see all that's inside. Thank you Miss Peng, thank you for being God's vessel of blessing. You, Miss Peng, are the one of the most beautiful adults, or even person that I've ever met in my life.
I'll never forget you(:
God bless!
Thursday, November 18, 2010 / 6:33 PM
The same pain that hits you again and again.